Crazy Life

My life is so crazy right now.

My girlfriend and I got into a big fight, and now I don't know whether or not she will move in with me. She and I have been together for 6 years, and we are both guilty of holding onto feelings and not being able to accept each other's differences and opinions. My life is up in the air because she is making me wait on her decision despite many inconveniences. I am also in the process of moving to my new office, and my internet is down at home.

Anyone reading this should contact me, as I am really in need of friends and support with all of this turmoil. I wake up too early, I have nightmares, and I'm always stressed. I will begin to write more when things are calm again. I am afraid to lose 6 years of a relationship over one argument, but then again, life has to go on. I am also afraid to be living alone and having to be on my own again. My new house is nice, but I really want my girlfriend to move in with me. If we do end up going our separate ways, it will force us to go through 6 years of crap, and separate her stuff from my stuff. What a bummer. We are both very hardheaded and very detemined, and there's a lot to be said for both of those qualities.

I just keep thinking, "why is it all happening right now?" and, "why does this have to be so hard?" I have to go give a speech next week, not to mention get a ramp installed, pack, move, find some new attendants, get my internet working at home, start graduate school online, and not have a nervous breakdown in the process, and I am close.

I hope this is not the end...